Thursday, May 18, 2006
My week: ups and downs
It's definitely been an occupied week. Let's recap.
PLUS: I had my 24th birthday Tuesday. 24 years old -- doesn't feel all that different from 23. But, unlike 23, 24 (as Evan pointed out) is 42 backward. Which is cool. I'll have to stick to that for the next year.
MINUS: My great-grandmother died at 100 the very same day. It was not sudden, she had a stroke a week ago and as far as I know we didn't expect much for her recovery. I may not have seen her in more than a year, but now that she's gone I miss her and the sound of her voice and going over to her house. And her house in general.
At that it was probably also my loneliest birthday. Which is not to say I didn't appreciate all the phone calls and messages, thanks guys.
PLUS: About 2 more pounds between today and the last time I measured myself 2 or 3 weeks ago.
MINUS: That brings me up to a voluminous 223 pounds. I hate being fat, it just seems to do so much to aid and abet my general self image of being just fat and stupid. It's funny that nobody who cares anything about me feels that way. Apparently me and the picture I see in my mind and in the mirror are two very different things. Unfortunately I really only get to see the latter. I don't know where this switch is to get myself over this lousy hump.
MINUS: Not enough sleep this week, which is probably part of the problem.
PLUS: Actually got back on the treadmill today. It'll begin wearing on my shins again, but at least I started that again. It does get that much further toward dropping myself down to a reasonable weight.
PLUS: Tomorrow is another day.
PLUS: I had my 24th birthday Tuesday. 24 years old -- doesn't feel all that different from 23. But, unlike 23, 24 (as Evan pointed out) is 42 backward. Which is cool. I'll have to stick to that for the next year.
MINUS: My great-grandmother died at 100 the very same day. It was not sudden, she had a stroke a week ago and as far as I know we didn't expect much for her recovery. I may not have seen her in more than a year, but now that she's gone I miss her and the sound of her voice and going over to her house. And her house in general.
At that it was probably also my loneliest birthday. Which is not to say I didn't appreciate all the phone calls and messages, thanks guys.
PLUS: About 2 more pounds between today and the last time I measured myself 2 or 3 weeks ago.
MINUS: That brings me up to a voluminous 223 pounds. I hate being fat, it just seems to do so much to aid and abet my general self image of being just fat and stupid. It's funny that nobody who cares anything about me feels that way. Apparently me and the picture I see in my mind and in the mirror are two very different things. Unfortunately I really only get to see the latter. I don't know where this switch is to get myself over this lousy hump.
MINUS: Not enough sleep this week, which is probably part of the problem.
PLUS: Actually got back on the treadmill today. It'll begin wearing on my shins again, but at least I started that again. It does get that much further toward dropping myself down to a reasonable weight.
PLUS: Tomorrow is another day.
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